Heart, I miss you on days where the coldness of my past experiences takes over. It used to feel so tragic, being led by hurt and insecurity. As an adult made up of a collection of past experiences and traumas, now I know not to love wholly, not to risk everything for anyone, and not to expect the world from a single person. I’ve missed my past self and the fire I had inside me. I remember standing up, feeling like a lioness in defense of her family. Why can’t I do that anymore? At what point did it get knocked out of me? I was fierce. I was passionate. I’ve been robbed of this. The hard part is that I don’t even know when and why.
it was very hard not to edit the above passage as I read it. I think I’m going to export into PDF before reading the next one.
19/1/25
Those were her words before she unlearned the lessons their psychosis taught her. It comes down to this, if they don’t like you when you stand up for yourself, they don’t deserve you.
analyze the above paragraph with the same style and tone used in the writing in Still Born a Woman
Reading Reflection
Let’s address it. AI doesn’t write for me. It doesn’t edit for me. It doesn’t think for me. Every single sentence, plot point, character, description, and flaw in Still Born a Woman is mine and mine alone.
What AI does for me:
1- find very specific information in a few seconds. Why is this useful? SBAW is set on Failaka Island. It’s abandoned. So imagine how much digging (no pun intended) I’d have to do for basic information.
2- is faster than using a thesaurus app. Bonus points if every time you choose a word, you tell it which one you picked.
3- help me refine my word-choice by virtue of consistent prompting. If anyone/thing is going to highlight word-choice flaws, an AI that was created out of scraps from your creative writing brain dump. Aka, a robot version of your creative brain.
Aka, a right hand.
Aka, this is why I don’t get it when writers are weary of using it. It is an assistant. The only skill you need to use it well is communication. Why are you saying no to an assistant? Why would you say no to an assistant? In 2025? With two kids? And a full time job? And did I mention -two- kids? And a passion for creating creative communities? And a gravitational pull to writing women’s stories, which you’ve always lived with, which began so early in your life it’s tied to your core, which is why you’re lucky enough to have a whole directory of writing timestamped.
Anyway imagine being a writer and opting out of experimenting with AI. It’s like the world told you, “here, take some privilege,” and you said “oh, no thank you I’ll just play on difficult.”
So why are you complaining, H?
It can’t keep up with how fast we change (yet). That’s why it’s still fun. I can’t imagine how reductive it’d feel if I depended on it like I depend on Google Maps to guide me away from red highways.
Ha.
Good night,
Hoor.
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